Changes

I should have known my emotional state was off when I teared up when watching the Coke commercial (yes, that bad) with Jay-Z. The one where a woman has her feet hanging out of a car window while the breeze from the open window appears to be refreshing her spirit. I wondered if I would ever be that young, free soul again. Would I lay back in Rob’s arms while Lola drives her crazy old parents around and laugh out loud with the joy I was feeling? I’m well aware there was something much deeper than a silly commercial tugging at my emotions. But rather than fighting and kicking that lurking feeling away, I decided to take a closer look within to try and figure out what I...
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My Golden Birthday

For as long as I can remember I have always looked forward to this day.  Today I am 30 years old on the 30th of July.  I’m not sure why I have always believed this old wives tale, but for some odd reason it has always stuck.  Perhaps it is a blessing because I don’t have that fearful dread of turning 30.  If anything I am embracing today as the day that will begin positive changes in my life.  Surprisingly, I’m excited to begin this new chapter as I’m feeling the good vibes heading my way.   ...
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Rolling with the changes

Lola was just a week short of two months old when this photo was taken.  I found it today as I was uploading old pictures from our other camera.  I couldn’t help but cry as I was reminded that Lola used to indeed look at me.  Out of all of the developmental delays we are trying to guide her through, the vision part has been the hardest one for me to cope with.  Yesterday as I saw my friend Francesca’s baby for the first time in a couple months, I was a bit thrown back as to how engaged her eye contact was with me.  I didn’t realize how much I had been longing for Lola to look me in the eye again.  I know that is one...
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