Have you ever slipped and fallen in front of a huge crowd of people? Do you pretend like something somehow jumped out in front of you causing you to fall? Do you simply put your head down and act like it didn’t happen at all? Or do you accept that yes, you just made the biggest ass of yourself, but hey…who doesn’t and really…who’s going to remember anyway?
I admit it…you all saw me fall last week. I couldn’t blame it on an obscure object that disrupted my path as I knew right where I was walking. I couldn’t act like it didn’t happen because that’s probably what got me in the situation in the first place. So yeah I fell and I fell hard, but I stood back up stronger and more determined to continue to put one foot in front of the other because that’s what we do. We keep on walking through life even though we have no idea what lies ahead. It can be scary, but it can also be a beautiful, wondrous adventure. An adventure that no one else has the luxury of going on…one that is specifically tailored for just you. So onward I go without looking back. No feeling guilty for “having feelings” as my supportive sister put it and no apologies for striving for the best life possible for Lola.
I learned a lot about myself last week much of which I’ve been reflecting on. And I also learned that I have an amazing support system made up of family, friends, readers and even complete strangers. The number of emails, Facebook messages and just words of encouragement was overwhelming…even those who have children without special needs voiced similar feelings close to my own. So this week I wiped the last of the tears, put on my best heels (yeah right…more like comfy shoes) and proudly strutted once again.
*** With Spring starting to make its way into Indianapolis, we have been thoroughly enjoying spending our time outside. Our new house came equipped with a lovely porch swing and most days that’s where you can find Lola and me.
Our new house is just down the street from downtown Irvington. Irvington is just oozing with history and character. It has everything you could want in a little town: eclectic artisan shops, a bakery that makes divine goodies, a coffeehouse that has the best cappuccino in the city, a great bookstore, unknown restaurants that you want everyone to know about but kind of want to keep the secret to yourself, wonderful antique shops, a library and so so much more.
I’m finishing this post on a Sunday…a rare day off in my world so I think I’ll go enjoy the rest of this day. Happy Sunday everyone!